Dear 2017

Dear 2017

At times, you were my greatest enemy and my best love.

I fell in love with you at the very beginning.

All I wanted was to be with you.

You gave me so many experiences.

You let me see some of my idols this year.

 

Over time you give me some of the worst pain of my life.

To make me a better man, you gave me some of the hardest life lessons I had to learn.

You made me sit back and analyze my relationships with myself and my friends.

Even though you through me in the cave and threw away the key…

You let me drown in my sorrows…

Left me in Penrose walking until my feet bleed.

Trapped me in the prison of my own thoughts because you knew that was the worst sentence I could get

Then you released me back into society into a new place as a second chance at redemption.

At first, I didn’t think I deserve redemption.

 

Then you gave me new light.

Showed me that I do deserve happiness.

That I don’t need to be my worst enemy.

Helped me build new relationships.

Reevaluate old ones.

Best thing of all you showed me that through it all

There is always light at the end of the tunnel.

Lost soul

The thought of you gets me sentimental

All in my head

These feelings have me all caught up.

Reminiscing on our love and the way we use to be.

 

The memories of you infiltrate my dreams like Freddy.

Playing Russian roulette with a loaded gun,

Shooting new memories into my head to get over you.

This game doesn’t end well,

But I just want it to end

 

This feeling of pain controls me.

It has power over me

As much as I despise this feeling.

I yearn for this feeling …

It keeps us together

This pain is the only way I can keep you around.

Let go of the pain and I let go of you

 

Desire becomes surrender and surrender becomes power.

You have power over me,

I surrender my soul to you and

I desire to be with you.

I am powerless when it comes to you